Tear Tarnished Angel

My apologies for there being so few new posts here.

In my drive to have a 3.5+ GPA, everything else ends up taking a backseat.

My creative juices for writing run dry from stress, unfortunately.
So likely no novel stuff till April :(

on the sim end of things I took part in the GOS Founder's Event
Go Download all the pretty stuff people uploaded there!

Still love you all and activity will return in April ^_^

I just moved into Dorms 4 hrs from my parents. Dormmates are alright, we are all gamers, but only one gets having any kind of mental condition and it's because she's training to be a mental health nurse. I'm not used to having people giving me weird looks when I say I have depression and anxiety, almost everyone in my family does... Almost all of my friends had mental conditions in my life, it's more weird for people to not have these issues then to actually have them, to me.

I'm settling in but I'm not at my best on my own right now, the campus is huge and to get between my classes I literally have to do 6 flights of stairs in less then 8 minutes. I'm physically exhausted and trying to keep myself calm so I don't have an anxiety attack or a breakdown, so I'm not doing too much gaming right now. I'm more reading my books on Buddhism and meditating, and chanting to the Bodhisattva Kwan Yin to keep myself level.

My classes are decent, they are seemingly easier then my second year classes at collage actually, which is weirding me the heck out!

I do have some projects I can upload just have to get the energy to do so. If anyone is better at taking clear shots of skintones and is willing to take some preview pics of a zombie skintone I'd like to upload at GOS I would really appreciate it!

The apartment building we are currently living in was sold between companies three times after we moved in. The guy who bought all six of the three bedroom apartments had mortgages on them which our rent was going toward paying. Well... We have been paying 1500$ for 3 years and none of it ever went to the mortgage. So all of the three bedroom suites are being foreclosed and are now owned by the bank. We have 28 days to pack and get out of dodge before they change the locks and we are screwed.

This forced moving comes just as my mother goes in for a breast reduction on the 14th of July as she has double DD's which is effecting her back which has 3 discs disintegrated and three hemorrhaging as well as pinched nerves to her legs so she can't feel a damn thing from middle of her back to the tips of her toes.  But as my mother is fucking amazing she has worked full time all year with all of these injuries. The breast reduction will help and later in the summer she is supposed to go finally for nerve testing (Again >.< ) before they will fix the pinched nerve. All of this damage to her was done in car crashes in the last 12 years.

My brother is having hip surgery as the ball of his hip is messed up and has actually made a hole in the hip bone which they have to repair, and that surgery is 3 days....3 days after my mother's surgery. I was going to stay home and help her but my father who thinks he is owner of the universe says I am a lazy "....." and so I am looking for a job for the summer instead because regardless of her needing the help my father is always right. So amid these surgeries we have to move and we may even end up in a hotel until December and if we do I wont have my desktop. I will still be getting on my laptop or at the college because if I don't I might just end up in jail from killing my father. 23 years of being yelled at makes me touchy when it comes to him, cause yelling and swearing fixes everything don't you know? *Cue the sarcasm.

Internet will hopefully keep me sane.

But the writing and simming I had planned is not likely to happen now. So I may be on hiatus. I'm so stressed I've bitten all of my hang nails to the point my fingers are bleeding profusely :<

I will try to post again if anything changes.

Highlight the sentences that apply to you.

I am a boy. - (F2M)
I am a girl.
I am shorter than 5’4.
I think I’m ugly sometimes. – Not the right body >.>
I have many scars.
I tan easily.
I wish my hair was a different color. - Black!
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have a tattoo.
I am self-conscious about my appearance. - Again wrong body >.>
I have/I’ve had braces.
I wear glasses.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
I have more than 2 piercings.
I have piercing in places besides my ears.
I have freckles.

( Meme Inside! )

Thank you everyone for the prayers and positive thoughts in our direction. Connor is still in the hospital but he is no longer needing to be on life support, he still requires help breathing from a respirator but he's doing better. He's alert and chewing on the tube that goes down his throat  which is very like my brother to do so it's good to know that he is the same guy he was before hand ^__^

He's fighting the infection in his lungs hard and it's an uphill battle now, we don't know when he's getting out of the hospital but things are starting to look better.

Thank you very much everyone for your support and bright thoughts ^_^
 

I signed up for origfic bingo and I am waiting impatiently for my card, but now I find out my paper proposals (History and Philosophy) are due on the 8th of Oct.

The History paper is going to be interesting, it's on a Iranian Scholar named Al Ghazali, and I will get to research Islam which I have been interested in researching more of. I don't know anything about the time period though; 1058-1111 A.D so this is all new and will be ALOT of research! 10 page History paper here I come >_>

The philosophy paper will either be a yes or no to the existance of the PKG God (All powerful, all knowing, all good God) or a yes or no to the existence of life after death (The soul, reincarnation and the like.) Not as much research as I just need two valid arguments in my favor by well known philosophers,and that is 6 pages; both papers being due November 18th.

And while this I will be having weekly Biology, Physcology tests and bi weekly Philosophy and History tests.

I am going to lose my mind...

And my arms, my carpal tunnel and arthritis is out to kill me with all the typing and note taking I am doing.