Tear Tarnished Angel

Under age love depicted in art and writing...

You ask, What makes it worth defending? and the only answer I can give is this: Freedom to write, freedom to read, freedom to own material that you believe is worth defending means you're going to have to stand up for stuff you don't believe is worth defending, even stuff you find actively distasteful, because laws are big blunt instruments that do not differentiate between what you like and what you don't, because prosecutors are humans and bear grudges and fight for re-election, because one person's obscenity is another person's art.

Because if you don't stand up for the stuff you don't like, when they come for the stuff you do like, you've already lost.

The CBLDF will defend your First Amendment right as an adult to make lines on paper, to draw, to write, to sell, to publish, and now, to own comics. And that's what makes the kind of work you don't like, or don't read, or work that you do not feel has artistic worth or redeeming features worth defending. It's because the same laws cover the stuff you like and the stuff you find icky, wherever your icky line happens to be: the law is a big blunt instrument that makes no fine distinctions, and because you only realise how wonderful absolute freedom of speech is the day you lose it.

- Neil Gaiman

Hells YES.

Am I the only one that thinks happy endings are over-rated sometimes? Even in fantasy where the dead can be brought back, and lovers re-united, only so many people should come back from the dead before you start saying, 'Okay then why don't we just bring back everybody already?!'

And not every divorced couple can get back together, actually....not many can at all usually. There is a good reason one would think for divorce and it's not just going to be wished away by time or distance. Especially if those people found other people to love, the most I say I would hope for is that they wish good will toward each other in their new endeavors.

Not everyone has to end up with a romantic interest to be happy in their life. Ever heard of asexuals? Especially abused individuals, trust is not easy to begin with and then you have those that really can't trust and sometimes it's not a good idea for them to be in a relationship. That relationship being with another broken, damaged individual does not make this automatically better by the way >.> I say it would be harder, two damaged people trusting each other? O.o

Not all of my characters have happy endings, some of them do, but many do not, they do not all end in tragedy but they end in a good dose of reality. And I'm sorry if reality in your fantasy is not what you want but I love my world because it feels real to me, tangible as though I could walk out my door and into it. And that is because there is so much to lose, and everything to gain and in the end your misfortune or luck may be destiny or chance just like the real world.

I'm going to break this even though I'm stating it now, no more people coming back to life, no more all encompassing, unconditional love because even in a world where Gods walk the shores, death is still death and some die before their time. How would life be precious otherwise? And unconditional love....is terrifying. My muse by the name of this account has never had unconditional love ever, and the very idea scares him more then anything else because it's something he can not understand, something he can not comprehend. Love has always been conditional and it will always be conditional, you can do something wrong, something so heinous that you will be left alone in the dark. And in realizing this you panic, but you hold on and you savor every moment of everyday of that person loving you. And when they don't anymore your heart breaks but you knew it was coming and then you leave your heart shattered on the floor and move on.

I'm not bitter or pessimistic but...

I rather like your everyday normal endings.

Because Happy endings are so over-rated and they become so very very cheap.

It's 4:30 am and FINALLY I have Zevran. Took long enough >.> Now finally my male ranger can has some lovins!

I adore Zevran's personality, the voice irritates me at times but he is adorable! (He's like a Elf Puss in Boots!)

I haven't really been writing recently, Seasonal depression kind of eats my muses alive >.>

Soooo instead of a drabble or short story I give random snippet of a Role Play that had me chuckling.


Vincent was at the castle to see Nathanial my Novel protagonist who in the events of the role play mentally and physically aged past 14 to 17 which in novel canon will never happen as he dies at 14 but in this role play was brought back to life. Sir.Rapheal is Nathanial's King's Guard, his most loyal man. This scene was the sight Vincent ended up coming upon in the castle.



The King was in formal attire, a frock coat, white tights and black leather heeled boots, the frock coat was black with silver engravings and intricate patterns on it.

"Rapheal?" Nathanial's deeper voice spoke up and there was a chuckle from behind him.

The King had a black silk blind fold wrapped about so he could not see his hands out before him; Rapheal leading him.

"You know I'm one for bondage and all its practical purposes but I never took you for that kind of man."

A deep laugh left Rapheal,"Their is much about me you don't know."

Nathan laughed showing his teeth still stumbling along. "Really now, are you trying to bash me into a wall?"

Rapheal grabbed onto him a bit better. "Not precisely you’re Majesty."

"Well you’re doing a fine job of it anyways!"

It really disgusts me that most of the information I am finding about the Islamic Golden Age and the scientific achievements of that time have to be wrote by Islamic sites because non Islamic sites accuse them of making it up O.o. 8th century to 13th century, they made amazing innovations in every single field, and if it weren't for them it would have been a lot longer before we would have had the Greek philosophy and wisdom's that they translated into Arabic.

Put aside your hates of what SOME Islamic sects have done these days and look past your selfishness, an entire people are not bad, an entire religion is not evil! Ignorance is what ticks me off.

The only source of info that was at the very least neutral was Wikipedia! WTF?!

Look at this list of stuff it's insane!

Innovations of the Muslim World


I really hate when people deny history, I really really really hate it! 
And don't even get me started on people who deny the holocaust >.>

//End Rant.//