[Life] Grades Bombed
Apr. 19th, 2011 06:47 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nathanialroyaleI don't have a facebook anymore so this is where I am unloading.
I failed two of three of my final exams. I failed one class so far, the other I have a 60 thank goodness. This next one I am worried about too.
I can't do this next year, I have to have a 2.4 average to transfer and if I don't get to finish my degree I really don't have anything else I want to do with my life... I want to teach University history and write my novels, that's all I want. I just have to push myself to do it, I've never been a good studier, and with seasonal depression winter semester is brutal for me. But I have to re-take astronomy as I got 48% (SO CLOSE >.<)
The influences in my life are not helping, all of my friends that had drive are already out of Red Deer and doing their third or fourth year of their own degrees. Everyone else left in this town I talk to are dreamers, saying they will do something but never actually trying for it. I hate that. I need the motivation of people around me who will actually say to me- Go Study! Instead of bitching that they never get time with me anymore because of school. Thanks for the support assholes.
It's no wonder I am withdrawing back into my writing, my imagination and muses are what keeps me sane when I'm stressed and depressed. I showed myself I can get good grades, I had a high seventy and a high eighty last semester, I just have to force apply myself. I do want this, I want to teach, it's all I've ever wanted to do in my life, and because of math I've had to take the harder, longer road instead. I just wish my friends would be more supportive as I'm really not good at making new ones.
I failed two of three of my final exams. I failed one class so far, the other I have a 60 thank goodness. This next one I am worried about too.
I can't do this next year, I have to have a 2.4 average to transfer and if I don't get to finish my degree I really don't have anything else I want to do with my life... I want to teach University history and write my novels, that's all I want. I just have to push myself to do it, I've never been a good studier, and with seasonal depression winter semester is brutal for me. But I have to re-take astronomy as I got 48% (SO CLOSE >.<)
The influences in my life are not helping, all of my friends that had drive are already out of Red Deer and doing their third or fourth year of their own degrees. Everyone else left in this town I talk to are dreamers, saying they will do something but never actually trying for it. I hate that. I need the motivation of people around me who will actually say to me- Go Study! Instead of bitching that they never get time with me anymore because of school. Thanks for the support assholes.
It's no wonder I am withdrawing back into my writing, my imagination and muses are what keeps me sane when I'm stressed and depressed. I showed myself I can get good grades, I had a high seventy and a high eighty last semester, I just have to force apply myself. I do want this, I want to teach, it's all I've ever wanted to do in my life, and because of math I've had to take the harder, longer road instead. I just wish my friends would be more supportive as I'm really not good at making new ones.
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Date: 2011-04-28 10:07 pm (UTC)It is a good thing that you do have some outlet to let out your frustration and depression on.
So, you have to take a math class and an astronomy class again? In any case, I have confidence in you. Good luck. :)
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Date: 2011-04-29 02:42 am (UTC)