[OrigFic] Loving this way (Jealousy)
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nathanialroyaleTitle: Loving this way
Prompt: Jealousy
Rating: (Pg-13)
Content Notes: These two, oh these two. They love each other so dearly, so deeply but they just have to let go.
Inspired by Collin Raye's Loving this Way. The story Please Don't Leave Me comes before this.
Warnings: None
Main Character/s: Mallie Quele, Kallion ap'Eibhlhin
Plot: Love and a relationship left behind.
Location: Dire Cry Castle
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“I...I think we should start seeing other people Kallion.”
The words held a weight that even with the knowledge they were coming still made shoulders sag and throat go dry.
“I’m...not what you want, I’m not what you need,” the words were soft, tired and hurt, and Kallion starred at Mallie as her hands wrung.
“That’s not true,” Kallion responded with immediately larger hands taking up hers and she shook her head, thick black curls falling into her face.
“I don’t want to love like this anymore, I’ve tried, we’ve tried...Can...We still be friends?” It was asking too much she knew but earnest green eyes looked through curls at the man she had loved sense she had been a child.
“Sometimes love just simply isn’t enough. You are not the little boy with fluffy wings who would hold me crying in my sleep. I’m not the desert rose that spun under the sun, we’re not who we used to be.”
“Neither of us are that free are we?”
“No...Kallion, we’re not good for each other, we’ve hurt each other. We yell at each other, we argue, we fight,” and pale hands lay on her pregnant stomach though it was not visible.
“I grew up with that, Vanessa shouldn’t have to. Maybe, just maybe we can come back someday, but for now, I need to look after myself, after our girl.”
“Where will you go?”
“Illander, I’ll ask to stay with Joscelin. I’ll be alright.”
Kallion just nods the fire going out of him, “Will I get to see her Mallie?”
“You will see our daughter Kallion, I would never take that away from you... But we need to get away; we need to see with open eyes what we are doing to each other. We both need to grow, to become better people.”
“No promises?”
“No...If I come back you will know, if I don’t...then maybe we weren’t meant for this, for each other.”
“Alright Mal, we’ll...see other people.”
Shaking her head Mallie gently pulled her hands away from his, “No, Kally, I know it will just be me. It was always just me and you watching, wondering. Your insecurities killed us both, the fears, and the jealousy. Just because people looked...Didn't mean anything, when I talked to them, I wasn't planning anything! Maybe I will end up with someone else, a man or a woman, and you will be alone. And you will grow bitter and...” swallowing her eyes filled with unshed tears.
“All I ever asked was for you to trust me beyond your insecurities, your fears and your jealousy. But it doesn’t matter now,” shaking her head Mallie stepped away, “Goodbye Kallion. May you be well.” She ignored the tears welling in her fiancé’s eyes as her own fell and she fled.
She ran.
I'm tired of loving this way;
I’m not the one you need,
Not the one in your dreams,
This is not the way love is supposed to feel,
I’m tired, tired of loving this way.
- Collin Raye, Loving this way.
Prompt: Jealousy
Rating: (Pg-13)
Content Notes: These two, oh these two. They love each other so dearly, so deeply but they just have to let go.
Inspired by Collin Raye's Loving this Way. The story Please Don't Leave Me comes before this.
Warnings: None
Main Character/s: Mallie Quele, Kallion ap'Eibhlhin
Plot: Love and a relationship left behind.
Location: Dire Cry Castle
--
“I...I think we should start seeing other people Kallion.”
The words held a weight that even with the knowledge they were coming still made shoulders sag and throat go dry.
“I’m...not what you want, I’m not what you need,” the words were soft, tired and hurt, and Kallion starred at Mallie as her hands wrung.
“That’s not true,” Kallion responded with immediately larger hands taking up hers and she shook her head, thick black curls falling into her face.
“I don’t want to love like this anymore, I’ve tried, we’ve tried...Can...We still be friends?” It was asking too much she knew but earnest green eyes looked through curls at the man she had loved sense she had been a child.
“Sometimes love just simply isn’t enough. You are not the little boy with fluffy wings who would hold me crying in my sleep. I’m not the desert rose that spun under the sun, we’re not who we used to be.”
“Neither of us are that free are we?”
“No...Kallion, we’re not good for each other, we’ve hurt each other. We yell at each other, we argue, we fight,” and pale hands lay on her pregnant stomach though it was not visible.
“I grew up with that, Vanessa shouldn’t have to. Maybe, just maybe we can come back someday, but for now, I need to look after myself, after our girl.”
“Where will you go?”
“Illander, I’ll ask to stay with Joscelin. I’ll be alright.”
Kallion just nods the fire going out of him, “Will I get to see her Mallie?”
“You will see our daughter Kallion, I would never take that away from you... But we need to get away; we need to see with open eyes what we are doing to each other. We both need to grow, to become better people.”
“No promises?”
“No...If I come back you will know, if I don’t...then maybe we weren’t meant for this, for each other.”
“Alright Mal, we’ll...see other people.”
Shaking her head Mallie gently pulled her hands away from his, “No, Kally, I know it will just be me. It was always just me and you watching, wondering. Your insecurities killed us both, the fears, and the jealousy. Just because people looked...Didn't mean anything, when I talked to them, I wasn't planning anything! Maybe I will end up with someone else, a man or a woman, and you will be alone. And you will grow bitter and...” swallowing her eyes filled with unshed tears.
“All I ever asked was for you to trust me beyond your insecurities, your fears and your jealousy. But it doesn’t matter now,” shaking her head Mallie stepped away, “Goodbye Kallion. May you be well.” She ignored the tears welling in her fiancé’s eyes as her own fell and she fled.
She ran.
I'm tired of loving this way;
I’m not the one you need,
Not the one in your dreams,
This is not the way love is supposed to feel,
I’m tired, tired of loving this way.
- Collin Raye, Loving this way.
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